love is cinta

menghitung hari detik demi detik
menunggu itu kan menjemukan
tapi ku sabar menanti jawabmu
jawab cintamu

jangan kau beri harapan padaku
seperti ingin tapi tak ingin
yg aku minta tulus hatimu
bukan pura-pura..

jangan pergi dari cintaku
biar saja tetap denganku
biar semua tahu adanya
dirimu memang punyaku

jangan kau beri harapan padaku
seperti ingin tapi tak ingin
yg aku minta tulus hatimu
bukan pura-pura

belum pernah aku jatuh cinta
sekeras ini seperti padamu
jangan sebut aku lelaki
bila tak bisa dapatkan engkau
jangan sebut aku lelaki..

A girl like you..

The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core

But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Your impossible to find

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you i'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may of failed
But I have loved you from the start
Ohhhh

But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It's impossible

So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in
I'm yours to keep
And hold onto your words
Cuz talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When your asleep

Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Your impossible to find

I just wanna get to know you

Down like a real man's supposed to

I never would have approached you

If I ain't have intentions on doing good

See dude, you with is so fooled

To me, girl, you're so cool

And all I'm asking you is to let me hold you.

random thoughts

Nobody wants the person who hurt them to ever see how badly they’ve been hurt.

kau la lum po!

Back from KL :)

Got so many things to say and share but lazy uh. I'll just share briefly my experience to you guys. And there's also not much pictures to show. Just sit back and enjoy and let me do the talking.

Day One, Left Singapore at around 6.30 am before that didn't sleep the whole night. Excited? no.. just other reasons. Reached KL at around 3 plus 4? can't remember but yeah rested for a while and off to Midvalley Megamall for our first shopping and dinner. Had our dinner and Tony Roma's ribs.seafood.steaks. it's real good :) then walked around abit and yeah thats about it. went downtown too! At night tried to sleep but can't. so many things running through my mind. Fell asleep soon though but feeling sad.

Day Two, woke up at 10 and breakfast. Then off to Sunway Lagoon :) it's been a while since i last went there. So many new rides and parks. Told my parents i wanted to go and do all the extreme things and did the G-Force. Flying fox across the water. Go cart. Viking some roller coaster thing and Top Gun. i just want to release stress and it did help :) Adrenaline rush! My whole family walked across the suspension bridge and for the first time i knew my father's weakness.Heights! It very funny. All of us walked normally and my father squat and walk! macam duck! seriously funny. He didn't stop walking that way till the end when the rest of us taking pictures and my brother can still run up and down like nothing! i was scared too but not as bad as my father. hahaha. Swam and wash eyes! if you know what i mean. hehehe oops! In the evening walked around sunway pyramid and surveyed clothes and stuff but did not get anything. instead my father bought 2 clothes. Oh i saw this fcuk top. its very nice got flower pattern and my dad wanna get it for me but i insisted -.- wasted! but its real nice. okay off to bed and today it seems alot easier to sleep eventhough there's still things happening in my mind. Basically i spent the whole day at Sunway.

Day Three, Shopping all the way! but first went to KLCC to the petrosains thing. then i wanted to get this reef slipper exactly same as my current one but the colour is cool! mixture of grey and red. Singapore dont have! but dunno hesitate on it and forget it! hahaha. Went Pavillion and this time i bought things. got two tops and bracelet :) those 3 things already cost me my money i brought to shop. never but pants watch and shoes :( after that went to Bukit Bintang and walk like a star! hahaha. no la just shop again! my family bought things and i bought famous amos cookies! hahaha. Subway for dinner and celebrated my brother's birthday and had tiramisu cake! his birthday is on the 23rd but just celebrate it a day earlier :) Then continue walking and shopping and saw many middle east girls ^^. Thats about it, and oh! i almost argue with some guy at KLCC! but my family all there so i just pushed him away. he was blocking the lift and pretend like its not his fault! yeah so did some packing before resting my body :)

Day Four,  nothing much to say cause going back already. Journey back was normal. Stop for lunch and my nenek when to buy things. then continue our journey and reach singapore at 11 plus cause of heavy traffic, So yeah, my trip was fun and i enjoyed myself. now some pics for you guys:

vacation

I'll be away for vacation till the 23rd. Going KL to relax myself and just have fun. Need this break cause many things have been happening this past weeks. Gonna miss everyone :) Miss VT, hamka ahmad haiqal and atul. Seh San, lili aiq and frin. My best outing partners too, nadya fazlin yayat ayie nana fai and syirah! For those not mention, you know i miss you guys! Stay happy everyone :) See ya soon!

reality check

Maybe what my friend has told me all this while are true. I'm like a character in the movie. Always the girl's best friend. He may be having feelings towards her called LOVE but in reality he knows he cant have her.


They share problems with each other, laugh together and try to help each other in difficult times. Like in the movie too, the girl will be in love with a guy and seeks help from her best friend. The guy will try to help eventhough it hurts him and realised how heart broken he is. He'll do it for his friend to make her happy. She dont realise it . No matter how hard or painful he will try his best. To her, he's just a friend. But to him, she means alot.


He loves her but try not to show it. Maybe sometimes leaving small clues for her to discover and thinks that he deserves to be given the opportunity. But life is unfair. He too have feelings. What even hurts more is to see the girl is attached. Be strong.


Often he looks to heaven for answers. Hoping for a change of luck. Maybe he tries so hard that the girl realise that he was caring and trying to help her.


One thing's for sure. He'll never give up on her and keeps his fingers crossed hoping for the best. For now it will be in a steady pace following the flow and giving a strong face.Everytime I see you, I can't help but smile. And everytime, that smile fades when reality comes back because I remember "I have no chance with her." 


THE WORST WAY TO MISS SOMEONE, IS TO HAVE THEM RIGHT NEXT TO YOU & YOU KNOW YOU CAN NEVER HAVE THEM.

change is nature

Remy's dad: The world we live in belongs to the enemy.. We must live carefully. We look out for our own kind Remy, when all is said and done we're all we got..

Remy: NO..

Remy's dad: What?

Remy: No, Dad, I dont believe it.. You're telling me the future is, can only be more of this?

Remy's day: This, is the ways things are.. You cant change nature

Remy: Change is nature Dad, the part that we can influence.. and it starts when we decide..

Remy's dad: Where are you going?

Remy: With luck.. Forward

Above was quoted from the movie Ratatouille. It was a random movie played on Disney Channel that happened to be the channel that was tuned in on television. Upon hearing this, i was moved by it and went to find the exact words. I like it, totally.

you.

Seems like going against a brick wall .

Down like a best friend, two homies in the game

When you cry I wanna feel your pain

No secrets, no games

All excitement, nothing plain

Keep you happy

That's my aim

And all you gotta do girl is let me hold you .

bloody scene

It happened so fast that i didn't notice my hand was bleeding. It may be a small cut but it cuts through my skin and could see  my flesh popping out. Wow! i didn't expect to create such scene. haha.  Six plates broke and i was trying to prevent more from breaking so i grab as many as possible. 

Only noticed the whole area was full of blood when i picked up two plates.  Paiseh leh! Alot of people around :P It bleeds non stop for 20 minutes and used up all the bandages but still couldn't stop the blood from gushing. Maybe there's glass in my flesh i dunno. Everyone told me to stitch it up but i refused. Small cut only mah! 

I was too paiseh to the pain. So my friend poured alcohol solution instead of iodine solution to the wound! It stings but i just want it to stop bleeding. Maybe this is a payback from god for what i did to my friend :) 

Blood still oozing out while i'm typing this post. And i'm losing blood fast! Anyone to give me blood donation? hehe :) But i don't think it's a big deal. The most die only lor cause no blood. hahaha! We'll see tomorrow if  its still bleeds, i'll go stitch it up.

P.S: thanks to all my friend who helped me out. I think you guys panicked more than i do especially Bernice! :)

hate me

I don't hold grudges. I get angry quick at times but i forget about it fast. I didn't expect you to be guilty and worse now you're pissed at me. I admit its my fault. You're only asking and not forcing. 


I'm sorry. I didn't expect you to forgive me but its fine.
Sorry if i piss and irritates you. I should be guilty not you :( 


 If this ends our friendship, i just want you to know that i'm very grateful to have a friend like you. Always give motivation and never to give up in relationship :) I like your smile too :) 


i promise i'll tell you in advance if i'm applying for leave next time. I really wanna see you so i make decisions that backfired. Sorry for not informing.


Hate me and i'll face the fact. I just wanna say sorry from the bottom of my heart :( 

moodswings

The day started off well. training was good and did gym today. I'm proud of myself for being able to do benchpress with 40 kg weights. Not bad aye! hahaha. So then went to work. Managed to get myself an offday on wednesday eventhough my manager dont really like it. A friend of mine asked me to go out so i tried my best to cancel my schedule for wednesday.  Just when i thought today is gonna be good, somehing happens. I shall not mention but it totally shuts my mood. Its not as if i'm angry at you but i hate poor decisions. But i'm angry at you too. Sorry if i'm being harsh. To cut the long story short, my wednesday now will be a wasteful day. I'm angry.