the way it unfolds, is yet to be told...

I am only human.

2010-05-23T22:29:00.000+08:00

Tell me I’m not making a mistake. Tell me that you’re worth the wait, that you’re always going to be here. make me believe that I’m making the right decision by still holding on. show me that you’re going to be around.

The ending's still being written down.

chasing dust

2010-05-09T02:22:00.000+08:00

Most of the time, we expect so much from love. We have so many hopes and wishes for it. We tend to search too hard for that perfect one we’ve always dreamed of. But what we don’t know is that sometimes, love is in disguise. That so many times it simply passes our way but we just never take the time to notice it. We don’t even give it a chance, thinking that something better might still be out there… And that is one of our biggest mistakes, to underestimate love and not give it a try.

Eeeee! smelly girl!

2010-05-04T01:07:00.000+08:00

Took pictures while webcaming!

That's your out of bed look eh frin? hehehe :P

hope this might cheer you up a little :)

hope it's positive

2010-05-03T01:49:00.000+08:00

no one is afraid of heights, they are afraid of the fall. no one is afraid to play, they are afraid to lose. no one is afraid of the dark, they are afraid of what’s in it; no one is afraid to say “I love you”, they are afraid of the response.

I always wonder what crosses your mind when your eyes meet mine.

2010-05-02T00:33:00.000+08:00

I don’t know what love is, but when I’m with you, I feel like the safest person in the world. I forget about everything else. Nothing else matters. It’s about here and now, and when you leave, it’s a waiting game. Because all I want is the next day when I get to see you. And that’s the reason I keep going everyday, in hopes that today’s the next day I get to spend even one minute with you. So if this isn’t love, it should be. Cause it’s the best thing in the world.

I am not good enough for you.

2010-04-25T02:24:00.000+08:00

Sometimes you’re dying for someone who doesn’t care. While somebody is already dead trying to please you.

Maybe it's You

2010-04-19T22:56:00.000+08:00

You ask me why i like you, and it's really something i can't put into words. Maybe because you make me happy most of the time. Maybe it's because you know how to keep a conversation with me. Maybe it's because you got me thinking about you before i go to sleep, and after i wake up. Maybe it's because i can be myself around you. Maybe because you bring out the best out of me. Maybe it's because i can spend hours on the phone with you talking about the stupidest things. Maybe it's because i can never get enough of you. Maybe it's just because your just being yourself, and i'm already slowly falling for you.

Kids Are Quick

2010-04-18T11:56:00.000+08:00

hey!

2010-04-12T22:14:00.000+08:00

Believe in yourself pretty face :)

i believe in you.

Don't lose faith and always keep your heads up!

miss you.

Yo Te Quiero

2010-04-10T00:48:00.000+08:00

I really enjoy spending time with you, even if we’re just going to be sitting around and talking about nothing. There are a million things I love about you, like your eyes or the way you smile, the way you look me in the eye, too. And I just get the greatest feeling when I make you laugh. I feel as if my company makes you happy, and that’s what I wish for you. For you to be happy. And when I see you laugh at my clumsy ways, it just makes me want to spend the rest of my life with you so I can see a smile on your face.

Nunca Caminaras Solo!

2010-04-08T23:26:00.000+08:00

10/12 Home kits.

Liverpool Football Club.

You'll Never Walk Alone

Must start thinking positive.

2010-04-06T23:36:00.000+08:00

"Keep your thoughts positive, because your thoughts become your words.

Keep your words positive, because your words become your behaviors.

Keep your behaviors positive, because you behaviors become your habits.

Keep your habits positive, because your habits become your values.

Keep your values positive, because your values become your destiny."

- Mahatma Gandhi

like a hollywood movie.

2010-04-05T04:22:00.000+08:00

I have a story to share here. A true story. My house almost got broken in by a guy!!! ARGHHHHH!! Hahahaha. k serious, i'm not lying. I'll be telling you guys the story exactly how i wrote in the police statement.

   It was 10 pm when i reach home and went to my room to put my belongings on a side table closes to my room window. I didn't see anything wrong in my room and went to watch soccer in the living room. After the game at about 11.50 pm i heard noises coming from my room and went to check it out.

   The room light was off but i could see a figure shoving things from my side table using a dustpan and a stick trying to take my wallet and earpiece. The guy saw me and dropped his tools in my room before running off. I told my mum about a robbery happening before looking to search for the guy. I was bringing my dad's golf club along during my search. I decided to check out on the 12th floor to see if the culprit is hiding there.

   Without hesitation i went up and saw him loitering outside neighbours house looking for other things. He was wearing the green shirt, the same one when i first saw in my room. I shouted before giving him a chase. I ran down the stairs with my golf club to the 11th floor. I was shouting to my mum that he's the fucker culprit and told her to stop him. My mum did grab the boy before pushing him down and dragging him to a corner. He tries to break free but my mum and i grab him by the shirt and pull him down. Called my dad to come home and he reached home at 1.10 am. Called the police and handed the matter over.

items trying to stole: wallet.(contains)
1. identification card
2. money 15000 ruppiah
3. 2 house keys
4. sports school ID card
5. other personal items

That fucker was a matrep aged 14. Lives in Pasir Ris and previously has been accounted for other crime.
Muhd Nazran bin Muhd Nazrin. I swear if my mum is not around, i already whack that fucker with my golf club. My mum stopped me everytime i attempt to hit him. I mean who wouldn't be angry when this thing happens to you and your family. I'm just protecting my family and he's lucky the police took him away with his face still intact. Total of 7 police officers, 2 CID officers, 2 undercover policemen, 1 police photographer and 1 head inspector came to my house!

I'm scared because there's only one of you.

2010-04-04T02:48:00.001+08:00

I try to talk to you, but I don’t know what to say. I am afraid you don’t want me to say anything, so I don’t. but inside of me there are words waiting to come out and tell you how I feel, like how I miss you. And how I love you despite my broken heart and how I need you in my life. And especially how much I want you. But those words may forever stay locked in my heart, locked inside. Sometimes I wonder if there are words locked inside yours too, but I’ll never know.

You’ve give me reasons to smile, and good times to laugh about, but most of all you’ve given me memories I could never forget.

18 years old

2010-04-03T22:51:00.000+08:00

Finally 18!

Got a surprise from Veh Tan! i really appreciate it alot!

More surprise from my working colleagues and old friends.

Appreciate all the wishes through phone calls, wall messages and text messages :)

Thank you all so much!

Above all this i hope to spent my birthday with you but i guess it won't happen.

Oh well, happy birthday to me.

Heeee! :)

2010-04-02T00:31:00.002+08:00

I don’t know what it is about you, maybe it’s the way nothing else matters when we’re talking, or how you make me smile more than anyone else has. It could be the way that you say? The exact right thing and exactly the right time but whatever it is, I just want you to know that it means everything to me.

to you

2010-03-28T02:41:00.003+08:00

Dear You,

No need to wonder what's been on my mind,

it's you.

love,

i'd like you to know.

2010-03-25T23:19:00.000+08:00

27 things most girls don't know.

1. Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.

2. Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.

3. Guys will do anything just to get you notice them.

4. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest

5. Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they're still loved.

6. Don't talk about your guy friends to your boyfriend.

7. Guys get jealous easily.

8. Guys are more emotional than they'd like people to think.

9. Giving a guy a hanging message like "you know what..uh..nevermind" would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.

10. Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.

11. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.

12. Guys loves you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships.

13. Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn't notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure it out what it meant.

14. Guys seek for advice from girls not other guys, because most guys think alike, so if one guy's confused, then we're all confused.

15. When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, "Please come and listen to me".

16. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.

17. If your best guy friend seems to avoid you or is never around when you're with your boyfriend, he's probably jealous and likes you.

18. When a guy tells you that you are beautiful, don't say you aren't. It makes them want to stop telling you because they don't want you to disagree with them.

19. When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something.

20. Guys don't like girls who punch harder than they do.

21. A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eye.

22. Don't be a snob. Guys can be intimidated and give up easily.

23. Guys talk about girls more than girls talk about guys.

24. Guys hate rejection, but they hate being led on even more.

25. If you are going to reject a guy, just do it. Don't say they are like a brother or just good friends. it just hurts them even more. Tell them that you aren't interested in a relationship and they will respect you.

26. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them.

27. When a guy sacrifices his sleep and health just to be with you, he really likes you and wants to be with you as much as possible. :)

do dreams comes true?

2010-03-22T12:51:00.000+08:00

Yesterday night I saw you in a dream, and when I told you that I loved you, you told me that you loved me too. Even in my dream I couldn’t believe you. You had to be joking. But still, it made my day to hear those words from you, even if it was only a joke within a dream.

If i had my chance, I'd never let you go.

2010-03-22T02:40:00.012+08:00

i wish yesterday could repeat itself. honestly i love it. i may not remember the days, but i'll always remember the moments. i think everyone has a certain part of their lives where they truly wish they could just freeze time. Whether it was three years ago, today, or still to come, whether it was just a moment, a whole day, or a whole summer. everyone has a time in their life where they wish everything would just stop. the world would stop turning and people would stop changing, because to them, at that time, everything was perfect.

Just so you know none of your scars can make me love you less.

And because of you, half the time i don't even know i'm smiling.

catch your wave

2010-03-21T00:05:00.000+08:00

i want to go surfing again!

fashion trends!

2010-03-15T02:04:00.000+08:00

Who lives in a pineapple under the sea..SPONGEBOB SQUAREPANTS!

cool right! hahahaha.

i'm happy :)

goodnight world!

fuck you bad timings!

2010-03-15T00:34:00.000+08:00

Screw bad timing!

why is it always have to be on me..

i dont get it.

I'm tired of this shit happening to me ALWAYS!

i blame no one.

just today two things happens.

i can't meet you and can't talk to you.

unlucky? yeah yeah.

can this shit stop happening to me?

i'm tired of it..seriously.

stop it, please..

It's a waiting game.

2010-03-10T01:51:00.001+08:00

I need someone to prove to me that I’m worth it, really worth it to them. Maybe all I need is a person who can show me that everyone is not the same. All I’m asking is don’t make promises you can’t keep, and don’t say things you don’t mean because in the end, those things mean everything. Promise me. That’s all I want. Just promise me that you’ll never forget me. Tell me I changed you somehow. Let me know that I had an impact on your life. Promise me that you’ll always remember me. I don’t wanna go on knowing I meant absolutely nothing to you. Because you meant everything to me.

Always tell someone how you feel. Mean what you say and say what you mean even when it’s hard because opportunities are lost in a blink of an eye but regrets can last a lifetime. If you love someone tell them, because hearts are often broken by words left unspoken.

i only said it cause i mean it, i only mean it cause it's true

now and forever

2010-03-04T12:13:00.000+08:00

Aww...so sweet!

Dear John :)

2010-03-04T00:17:00.002+08:00

A perfect partner in life is someone who can be with and talk about anything without realizing that the day is over. Someone who will always listen and feel twice the joy or pain you’re going through. When you start to feel that connection, never let it go because there’s more to companionship than there is to love. Because in the end, when all else fails and consumed, you will always hold on to those times you don’t even need to hear the word I love you.

bali baby!

2010-02-23T23:48:00.000+08:00

Leaving tmr! i'm very excited!! wooo! total there will be 7 guys going. me , hamka, ahmad, haiqal, abang hidir, abang amy and one of their friends. We're gonna unleash ourself. no holding back our nonsense! just let it out and enjoy every second of our trip :)

Hope people in singapore will pray for our safe journey. Gonna miss you guys in singapore especially you! okay till here :) BALI HERE I COME!!!!

prettiest friend

2010-02-15T01:47:00.000+08:00

Don't forget the day that we met. It changed history atleast for me.

skip the goodbyes, please.

2010-02-13T02:09:00.009+08:00

I can hear the truck tires coming up the gravel road
And its not like her to drive that slow, nothin's on the radio
Footsteps on the front porch, I hear my doorbell
She usually comes right in, now I can tell

Here comes goodbye
Here comes the last time
Here comes the start of every sleepless night
The first of every tear I'm gonna cry
Here comes the pain
Here comes me wishing things had never changed
And she was right here in my arms tonight, but here comes goodbye

I can hear her say I love you like it was yesterday
And I can see it written on her face that she had never felt this way
One day I thought I'd see her with her daddy by her side
And violins would play here comes the bride

Here comes goodbye
Here comes the last time
Here comes the start of every sleepless night
The first of every tear I'm gonna cry
Here comes the pain
Here comes me wishing things had never changed
And she was right here in my arms tonight, but here comes goodbye

Why does it have to go from good to gone?
Before the lights turn on, yeah and youre left alone
All alone, but here comes goodbye

Oh-oooo

Here comes goodbye
Here comes the last time
Here comes the start of every sleepless night
The first of every tear I'm gonna cry
Here comes the pain
Here comes me wishing things had never changed
And she was right here in my arms tonight, but here comes goodbye

Oh-oooo

miss you...

You still mean everything to me. You're just not worth the heartache anymore.

2010-02-08T21:11:00.003+08:00

Lets start by saying that i agree to this; The worst way to love someone is to sit next to them, knowing they don’t love you back and nothing hurts more than realizing she meant everything to you, but you meant nothing to her.

To whom it may concern, i just want you to be happy though it can really break my heart. i just want to say that i enjoyed spending time with you, talking to you, sending you home and even spending one evening looking at the sunset. But i realised that it won't work out anymore. I know your feelings towards him is getting back stronger and i can't do anything about it. I still love you and I probably will love you for a very long time. But I can’t just be your buddy, because as much as I enjoy the concept of being “just friends” in reality, it’s a bizarre form of torture and I’m just not willing to participate in it. So right now what I wanna do is just move on and get over you and the only way for me to do that is to not be around you anymore. Maybe one day if we really are meant for each other, god will show us the path for us.

I keep wondering where I went wrong. Maybe I didn’t go wrong at all. Maybe things are going to turn out the way they’re meant to and nothing’s going to stop them. Some things are easy to control and work out. But some things you just have to let go. So instead of asking why it turned out like this, I should accept that it is how it is. I cannot make someone love me. All i can do is be someone who can be loved. The rest is up to them.

For now, I’ll keep on dreaming, because it’s better than believing that you’re the one. I wish you were. And now I’m gonna stop hoping, that you won’t disappoint me. You’re the girl of my dreams, but, I think I’m finally waking up.

Why won’t you let me love you?

syarif hidayatullah

2010-02-03T23:46:00.000+08:00

alamak yat! dah besar uhh!! semue bende dah legal ehk! sorry for the late post for you but at least i wish you on time :)

brape eh umur? hmm..1,2,3...21 la pulak!! hahaha.

hope you had a great celebration and thanks for everything!

Dari belanje ke nasihat ke meminjamkan skateboard dan menjadi sahabat baik! :)

stay happy and all the best for the future :) SEA Games 2011 eh!

tak menyesal taufiq kenal yayat :)

till then, smile always :)

kite veh tan punyer!!!

I'd give anything to be your everything.

2010-02-03T00:53:00.000+08:00

If we fall in love because someone makes us laugh, what happens when we no longer find them funny? If we fall in love because someone is beautiful, what happens when that beauty fades? If we fall in love because someone can provide for us, what happens when they lose their wealth? Because love defies all reasons. When you truly love someone, you can’t just find a reason. You just do.

There will come a time in your life when you will become infatuated with a single soul. I really can’t explain it. For this person, I’d do anything and not think twice about it, but when asked why… i have no answer. i like you without trying. I love the things you say, and how you never fail to make me smile. I'll try to understand how a single person can affect me as much as they do, but i’ll never find out. You’re always on my mind.

You know he loves you when someone else makes you laugh, and he smiles just for the fact that you’re laughing.

for you, i will.

2010-01-26T00:34:00.002+08:00

I guess, if anything, it’s about taking chances, even when you think you’re all out of chances. It’s about giving forgiveness and unconditional love, even when it seems like you should only do the opposite. It’s about trusting that God puts people in your life at certain moments so that you can capitalized the opportunity. It’s all about the possibility. It’s all about what you do with those possibilities. Life is short, but it moves so fast. Hang on and enjoy the ride.And when someone comes along with whom you enjoy spending the ride with… hold on tight. And that's exactly what i'm doing now.

To tell you the truth I don’t have much to offer. But I’ll still give you everything I’ve got, even if it’s barely a thing at all. I’ll give you late nights, long hugs. Someone to talk to, someone to care for, someone who will always be there. A hand to hold, somebody to lean on. And if that’s not enough, just know you have all of me. I hope that’s enough.

If you give me a chance, give us a chance, I will spend the rest of my life proving to you that you made the right decision.

faizah wilson

2010-01-23T01:38:00.005+08:00

HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY FAI!!!!

eh fai?! finally 16 ehh! hahaha. wahh!! dah besar uhh skarang! Hope you have a great time just now at the pit. :)

taufiq hope that what you wished for will come true and wish you best of luck for your future in studies and life.

k this is a post about you since i owed you. haha. hope you like it :)

O level this year aye? study hard hor and no slacking, start focusing! hehe.

hope you excel in your O's this year and do your best in whatever you're doing! you can do it!!!

thanks for helping me out all this while and thanks for being a good friend :)

drummer and a skater girl seyy! woohoo!

continue believing in whatever you do and surely it will turn out positive :)

till then, stay happy always!

i'm begging you to be my escape

2010-01-19T01:27:00.001+08:00

There are some people who meet that somebody that they can never stop loving, no matter how hard you try. I wouldn’t expect you to understand that, or even believe it. But trust me, there are some loves that don’t go away. I learn that even the one person that wasn’t supposed to ever let us down, probably will. I'll have my heart broken and i’ll break others’ hearts. I’ll fight with my best friend or maybe even fall in love with them, and cry because time is flying by.

I have to be strong for myself. I have to know that i'm a good person and a good friend. What is meant to be will end up good and what isn’t, won’t. Relationships are worth fighting for, but sometimes i can’t be the only one fighting. At times, people need to fight for me. If they don’t, i must just move on and realize what i gave them was more than what they were willing to give me. Hopefully, people realize great things when they come around and don’t lose something real. Always fight until i can’t anymore, and then be fought for.

Sometimes you can't be what you ought to be, you can't have what you ought to have.
And life changes. Maybe a little, maybe a lot. And at some point it just isn't worth trying to fix what went wrong.

I want you to remember that you were that one person who could turn every frown into a smile in a few simple words. That person who lifted my head when I was losing faith in myself. That one person who always knew what I was feeling by the look on my face. That one person who accepted who I was when everyone else laughed in my face. That one person that accepted every decision I made believing that I’d make the right decisions. That one person who knew who I really was. That one person that made the biggest difference in my life. My best friend.

I’m sorry that I loved you more than you ever loved me.

2010-01-14T22:51:00.001+08:00

It’s just that I didn’t want to be somebody’s crush. If somebody likes me, I want them to like the real me, not what they think I am.

And I don’t want them to carry it around inside. I want them to show me, so I can feel it, too.

International Meet

2010-01-12T23:40:00.001+08:00

Today' training was tiring yet fun. All of us coincidentally wore training attires of different countries. Seriously not planned at all! I wore Indonesian attire, Dickson wore Thailand colours, Calvin wanted to be in Hong Kong colours. The girls also have thier own colours. Jannah wore Brunei while mariam wore vietnam. Only Matthew represented with Singapore colours. It's funny to see each other pretending to compete against each other. We did sprints before going for gym. Did core strengthening exercises and benchpress for me :)

After training felt really tired and slept the whole afternoon before going for work.

p.s : sorry didn't text you today. hope you had a great day and be safe ;)

lesson learnt

2010-01-08T00:35:00.000+08:00

I quit. I’m over you. I fell so hard. I was always there when you needed someone to talk to. Yeah, so basically I’m tired of being just a friend or chasing you. So if you want me, I’m here. But I’m done wasting all my time on someone who doesn’t care.

I'm not a toy.

2010-01-06T00:05:00.000+08:00

IF YOU’RE GOING TO LOVE ME, LOVE ME DEEPLY. IF YOU’RE GOING TO BREAK MY HEART, THEN BREAK IT ALL. IF YOU’RE GOING TO CARE, CARE FOR ME COMPLETELY. IF YOU DECIDE NOT TO HOLD ME, THEN JUST LET ME FALL. IF YOU’RE GOING TO STAY, THEN STAY FOREVER AND IF YOU WANT TO LEAVE, THEN DO IT TODAY. IF YOU’RE GOING TO CHANGE, CHANGE FOR THE BETTER. AND IF YOU’RE GOING TO TALK, PLEASE MEAN WHAT YOU SAY.

love isn't blind

2010-01-04T23:39:00.000+08:00

I know technically we’re not together, but forget the title and whatever
Because if you look into my eyes and listen to what I have to say, you’ll know I’m the one guy who will never walk away. :)

enough said

2010-01-02T01:20:00.002+08:00

love is cinta

2009-12-31T14:07:00.000+08:00

menghitung hari detik demi detik
menunggu itu kan menjemukan
tapi ku sabar menanti jawabmu
jawab cintamu

jangan kau beri harapan padaku
seperti ingin tapi tak ingin
yg aku minta tulus hatimu
bukan pura-pura..

jangan pergi dari cintaku
biar saja tetap denganku
biar semua tahu adanya
dirimu memang punyaku

jangan kau beri harapan padaku
seperti ingin tapi tak ingin
yg aku minta tulus hatimu
bukan pura-pura

belum pernah aku jatuh cinta
sekeras ini seperti padamu
jangan sebut aku lelaki
bila tak bisa dapatkan engkau
jangan sebut aku lelaki..

A girl like you..

2009-12-28T01:52:00.001+08:00

The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core

But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Your impossible to find

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you i'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may of failed
But I have loved you from the start
Ohhhh

But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It's impossible

So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in
I'm yours to keep
And hold onto your words
Cuz talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When your asleep

Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Your impossible to find

I just wanna get to know you

2009-12-26T17:50:00.000+08:00

Down like a real man's supposed to
I never would have approached you
If I ain't have intentions on doing good
See dude, you with is so fooled
To me, girl, you're so cool
And all I'm asking you is to let me hold you.

random thoughts

2009-12-26T01:00:00.000+08:00

Nobody wants the person who hurt them to ever see how badly they’ve been hurt.

kau la lum po!

2009-12-24T13:29:00.000+08:00

Back from KL :)

Got so many things to say and share but lazy uh. I'll just share briefly my experience to you guys. And there's also not much pictures to show. Just sit back and enjoy and let me do the talking.

Day One, Left Singapore at around 6.30 am before that didn't sleep the whole night. Excited? no.. just other reasons. Reached KL at around 3 plus 4? can't remember but yeah rested for a while and off to Midvalley Megamall for our first shopping and dinner. Had our dinner and Tony Roma's ribs.seafood.steaks. it's real good :) then walked around abit and yeah thats about it. went downtown too! At night tried to sleep but can't. so many things running through my mind. Fell asleep soon though but feeling sad.

Day Two, woke up at 10 and breakfast. Then off to Sunway Lagoon :) it's been a while since i last went there. So many new rides and parks. Told my parents i wanted to go and do all the extreme things and did the G-Force. Flying fox across the water. Go cart. Viking some roller coaster thing and Top Gun. i just want to release stress and it did help :) Adrenaline rush! My whole family walked across the suspension bridge and for the first time i knew my father's weakness.Heights! It very funny. All of us walked normally and my father squat and walk! macam duck! seriously funny. He didn't stop walking that way till the end when the rest of us taking pictures and my brother can still run up and down like nothing! i was scared too but not as bad as my father. hahaha. Swam and wash eyes! if you know what i mean. hehehe oops! In the evening walked around sunway pyramid and surveyed clothes and stuff but did not get anything. instead my father bought 2 clothes. Oh i saw this fcuk top. its very nice got flower pattern and my dad wanna get it for me but i insisted -.- wasted! but its real nice. okay off to bed and today it seems alot easier to sleep eventhough there's still things happening in my mind. Basically i spent the whole day at Sunway.

Day Three, Shopping all the way! but first went to KLCC to the petrosains thing. then i wanted to get this reef slipper exactly same as my current one but the colour is cool! mixture of grey and red. Singapore dont have! but dunno hesitate on it and forget it! hahaha. Went Pavillion and this time i bought things. got two tops and bracelet :) those 3 things already cost me my money i brought to shop. never but pants watch and shoes :( after that went to Bukit Bintang and walk like a star! hahaha. no la just shop again! my family bought things and i bought famous amos cookies! hahaha. Subway for dinner and celebrated my brother's birthday and had tiramisu cake! his birthday is on the 23rd but just celebrate it a day earlier :) Then continue walking and shopping and saw many middle east girls ^^. Thats about it, and oh! i almost argue with some guy at KLCC! but my family all there so i just pushed him away. he was blocking the lift and pretend like its not his fault! yeah so did some packing before resting my body :)

Day Four, nothing much to say cause going back already. Journey back was normal. Stop for lunch and my nenek when to buy things. then continue our journey and reach singapore at 11 plus cause of heavy traffic, So yeah, my trip was fun and i enjoyed myself. now some pics for you guys:

vacation

2009-12-20T02:05:00.000+08:00

I'll be away for vacation till the 23rd. Going KL to relax myself and just have fun. Need this break cause many things have been happening this past weeks. Gonna miss everyone :) Miss VT, hamka ahmad haiqal and atul. Seh San, lili aiq and frin. My best outing partners too, nadya fazlin yayat ayie nana fai and syirah! For those not mention, you know i miss you guys! Stay happy everyone :) See ya soon!

reality check

2009-12-17T01:54:00.002+08:00

Maybe what my friend has told me all this while are true. I'm like a character in the movie. Always the girl's best friend. He may be having feelings towards her called LOVE but in reality he knows he cant have her.

They share problems with each other, laugh together and try to help each other in difficult times. Like in the movie too, the girl will be in love with a guy and seeks help from her best friend. The guy will try to help eventhough it hurts him and realised how heart broken he is. He'll do it for his friend to make her happy. She dont realise it . No matter how hard or painful he will try his best. To her, he's just a friend. But to him, she means alot.

He loves her but try not to show it. Maybe sometimes leaving small clues for her to discover and thinks that he deserves to be given the opportunity. But life is unfair. He too have feelings. What even hurts more is to see the girl is attached. Be strong.

Often he looks to heaven for answers. Hoping for a change of luck. Maybe he tries so hard that the girl realise that he was caring and trying to help her.

One thing's for sure. He'll never give up on her and keeps his fingers crossed hoping for the best. For now it will be in a steady pace following the flow and giving a strong face.Everytime I see you, I can't help but smile. And everytime, that smile fades when reality comes back because I remember "I have no chance with her."

THE WORST WAY TO MISS SOMEONE, IS TO HAVE THEM RIGHT NEXT TO YOU & YOU KNOW YOU CAN NEVER HAVE THEM.

change is nature

2009-12-16T14:38:00.000+08:00

Remy's dad: The world we live in belongs to the enemy.. We must live carefully. We look out for our own kind Remy, when all is said and done we're all we got..

Remy: NO..

Remy's dad: What?

Remy: No, Dad, I dont believe it.. You're telling me the future is, can only be more of this?

Remy's day: This, is the ways things are.. You cant change nature

Remy: Change is nature Dad, the part that we can influence.. and it starts when we decide..

Remy's dad: Where are you going?

Remy: With luck.. Forward

Above was quoted from the movie Ratatouille. It was a random movie played on Disney Channel that happened to be the channel that was tuned in on television. Upon hearing this, i was moved by it and went to find the exact words. I like it, totally.

you.

2009-12-14T23:27:00.000+08:00

Seems like going against a brick wall .

2009-12-07T00:30:00.000+08:00

Down like a best friend, two homies in the game

When you cry I wanna feel your pain

No secrets, no games

All excitement, nothing plain

Keep you happy

That's my aim

And all you gotta do girl is let me hold you .

bloody scene

2009-12-03T23:13:00.001+08:00

It happened so fast that i didn't notice my hand was bleeding. It may be a small cut but it cuts through my skin and could see my flesh popping out. Wow! i didn't expect to create such scene. haha. Six plates broke and i was trying to prevent more from breaking so i grab as many as possible.

Only noticed the whole area was full of blood when i picked up two plates. Paiseh leh! Alot of people around :P It bleeds non stop for 20 minutes and used up all the bandages but still couldn't stop the blood from gushing. Maybe there's glass in my flesh i dunno. Everyone told me to stitch it up but i refused. Small cut only mah!

I was too paiseh to the pain. So my friend poured alcohol solution instead of iodine solution to the wound! It stings but i just want it to stop bleeding. Maybe this is a payback from god for what i did to my friend :)

Blood still oozing out while i'm typing this post. And i'm losing blood fast! Anyone to give me blood donation? hehe :) But i don't think it's a big deal. The most die only lor cause no blood. hahaha! We'll see tomorrow if its still bleeds, i'll go stitch it up.

P.S: thanks to all my friend who helped me out. I think you guys panicked more than i do especially Bernice! :)

hate me

2009-12-02T23:08:00.002+08:00

I don't hold grudges. I get angry quick at times but i forget about it fast. I didn't expect you to be guilty and worse now you're pissed at me. I admit its my fault. You're only asking and not forcing.

I'm sorry. I didn't expect you to forgive me but its fine.
Sorry if i piss and irritates you. I should be guilty not you :(

If this ends our friendship, i just want you to know that i'm very grateful to have a friend like you. Always give motivation and never to give up in relationship :) I like your smile too :)

i promise i'll tell you in advance if i'm applying for leave next time. I really wanna see you so i make decisions that backfired. Sorry for not informing.

Hate me and i'll face the fact. I just wanna say sorry from the bottom of my heart :(

moodswings

2009-12-02T01:46:00.001+08:00

The day started off well. training was good and did gym today. I'm proud of myself for being able to do benchpress with 40 kg weights. Not bad aye! hahaha. So then went to work. Managed to get myself an offday on wednesday eventhough my manager dont really like it. A friend of mine asked me to go out so i tried my best to cancel my schedule for wednesday. Just when i thought today is gonna be good, somehing happens. I shall not mention but it totally shuts my mood. Its not as if i'm angry at you but i hate poor decisions. But i'm angry at you too. Sorry if i'm being harsh. To cut the long story short, my wednesday now will be a wasteful day. I'm angry.

dope

2009-11-29T23:34:00.000+08:00

Just imagine this machine in stores near you! hahaha. Wouldn't it be nice?

Okay i'm tired, blog again soon :)

salam aidiladha

2009-11-27T00:41:00.000+08:00

To all muslim, selaamat hari raya aidiladha! maaf sembelih kambing! Evnthough the celebration is not as happening as hari raya aidilfitri, the importance of it is still the same. Look back during the days of the prophet and the sacrifices they have to make. Not gonna get hang bao though :( hehehe. Be Happy, Stay Happy, So Happy!

disturbing thoughts

2009-11-25T00:46:00.001+08:00

I have a couple of questions to ask everyone. What is 'enough'? What is 'the best'? Cause it seems that my best was enough to maybe most people. Yes, there is always room for improvement even though you're the top student in Harvard University or #1 ranking in the world in sports like Tiger Woods and Roger Federer. So when do one knows, he's given all his best and for others to claim that he's done his best?

Sometimes i felt that your own opinions/thoughts/feelings about yourself, doesn't worth anything until someone else shares the same opinions/thoughts/feelings with you. If others are against you, and no matter how much you tried to convince them, it would never be enough. Never be enough.

I thought that i had to change myself. Gotta change myself or nothing will ever change for me. I dont know why but today seems to make me change a perspective on something. It wasn't that terrible or difficult as i thought it would be. All you need is to ask.

"All endings are also beginnings. We just don't know it at the time."

night life...

2009-11-22T01:06:00.000+08:00

Went out to meet Shahrir and Poh just now. met new friends Asnawi and Aizat. they're brothers and gymnast too! cool aye? hahaha.Oh and two other guys whose name i cant recall. heh. Went to chill at Bali lane. Chillax till about 10 and off to Zam Zam alakazam for supper! I had fun :)

Not in a mood these past days. So many things happen, so little time. To be loved, its difficult but i'm prepared to wait. For how long? 1,2 or maybe 3 years? i don't know.I hope the wait will be worth it. Just follow the flow! haha. The feelings wont' fade and i hope to make it mine one day. As for now, i'll just wait and keep hoping.

Finally!

2009-11-21T16:39:00.001+08:00

I've finally decided to create a blog for myself. Still getting the hang of it. Set sail my freedom of words. Slowly but surely more will come from me. hahaha. peace out! :)